In a holding/healing pattern

Instead of being impulsive and diving right into the next killing spree since my small intestine is still overrun with methane, I'm trying a little patience.  Not my strong suit and if you've read any of my earlier posts you know I was more likely to go stronger, longer which has not been to my benefit.  I tried fasting, lasted two days, which makes sense since SIBO can have such a damaging effect on your ability to digest and assimilate.  So I was talking this through with my coach on Wednesday.  She's more of a business/lifestyle coach, not a health coach but she's so darned good at reading me and getting me to really think things through on my own that I broached the subject with her.  You tell me what to do and I'm likely to push back but lead me there and let me think it's my idea and I'm all in :) . Such is the way of my crazy brain!  

So, a year and a half ago after my last major "I'm going to rotate through ever last antimicrobial in the cupboard in a last ditch effort to get rid of every last archaea" episode, I gained 10 lbs, like BOOM!  This has annoyed the hell out of me for a multitude of reasons, one being I can't get my wedding band on, the other being I feel like a stuffed sausage in my clothes.  So while I say that I want to fast to let my digestion rest what I really want to do is lose these stubborn 10 lbs.  So this was the conversation with my coach, am I really fasting for the right reasons??  Maybe I just need to read The Complete Guide to Fasting again, I said.  She responded, stop reading, you are just giving yourself analysis paralysis, what does your body tell you?  I started to respond again from the head.  No, she said, take some time, lay on the floor, hand on heart and belly and really listen.  I don't have to.  My body is soooo hungry for nutrition, which means fasting will continue to be torture and I should really contemplate elemental if I do in fact want to give my digestion a rest.

I have a bag of the Integrative Therapeutics Physicians Elemental Diet but it's so sugary (dextrose and tapioca maltodextrin are the first two ingredients) that I am too chicken to try it.  I'm afraid it's just going to make me itch like crazy since I react so easily to sugars.  Not to mention that I would have to take antifungals as it can feed yeast overgrowth bigtime.  I'm sensitive to both potato and tapioca so there's that too.  I believe the dextrose is from potato since the formula is corn and wheat free. Those are the major sources of dextrose (potato, corn, wheat).  So back to contemplating the homemade elemental....  so nasty.  Still not sure that I want to go that route but really feel like my body could use the love.  In the meantime I'm stuffing my face with mexican food and contemplating beer :P.